Softly, softly I watch you sleep
Eyelids twitching as you dream.
Sleepless, I lay beside you.
Memories, memories
Of last time, come unbidden.
Sudden cry, cry of pain.
Nighttime rush and hurry
Waiting, waiting until
Closed doors barred the way
As they wheeled you in.
Interminable, interminable
Hours of agonized thoughts.
Circles, circles paced in vain.
Longing to see your face again,
Wanting to see both you and him.
Finally, finally the doors reopen
And they bring you out.
Speechless, terrified, time moves
Slowly, slowly enough to see
That something is wrong.
Lifeless, lifeless eyes do not see.
Limp arms drape over the edge.
You are barely alive and I want
To scream, scream at everything,
But I must be strong for you.
Frantic, frantic dash to the O.R.
Tried to comfort you, but you were
Too far gone to feel it.
Tears, tears falling on wet cheeks
Impossible suspense and pain.
Finally, finally the nurse came out
And with her she brought him!
And with him my life, life had new light.
But still I waited for you and
Worried my heart out.
Safe, safe and whole, they brought
You back to your room.
And my heart was full again.
Relieved, relieved you were alive
Because I had feared you were not.
Then they showed, showed us our son
And I'd never felt such joy as when
Looking upon you two together.
And knowing, knowing everything
Would be alright.
And now, now I look upon you sleeping
And see your rounded belly,
Anticipating, fretting about how
We are about to go through, through
This once again for her.
